Sunday, 2 November 2014

SELF-REFLECTION



I feel like I have run a marathon.

It wasn't intentional.  I didn’t plan it.  Still, over the last two and a half years, my life seems to have been one big long race, with a series of challenges, hurdles and careening hurdles to negotiate.  The finish line finally came into view a few weeks ago when #TKC was released to the world.  

The race is far from over and the path ahead is unclear.  For a brief spell, I have been granted a pause to exhale a long held breath, look around and explore.

I’m impulsive and follow my intuition at all times.  So the opportunity to look around is tantamount to releasing me into a bookstore.  With a world of subjects, stories and options to explore.  The book I select, the choice I make, will determine the road I will follow and while I wander around the bookstore of life I know one certainty.

I yearn for freedom. 

I want to be me without explanation or apology. 

I want to live the life I choose.

This realisation brings about its own challenges.  How do you quantify freedom?  How do you take such a concept and make it real with all the responsibilities that impact on your daily life?  For myself, in my humble opinion, this has worked since I became intentional.

I dreamed of being a writer and every single day I wrote and took a step towards the life I dreamed of.  It wasn't without hurdles.  #TKC began as a short story I wrote for a couple of hours, a couple of times a week.  As they say, Rome wasn’t built in a day.  I just wish it was...  I follow my instincts.  When I want something, I want it the day before I realised I wanted it in the first place and patience, my old friend, is determined to make me learn its lesson.

As always, it is the world of words, my feather quill that shows faith in me when I have little in myself.  It’s your signature on a piece of paper than signals the end of an old life and the beginning of another.  Its the signature that will gift me my own four walls and it will be within this space that I will begin writing the next story I am meant to tell.  The freedom I yearn for already exists within my creativity.  I accept no limits or barriers there.  I can’t wait to enter my new world and bring the characters that already live within my imagination to life.  But sometimes to get where you want to be, you have to pause, self reflect and get your house in order first.

So, if I could leave you with one parting wish I would like it to be this; take a moment and think about the life you want.  Your dreams are still out there waiting for you.  Go out there and grab them before its too late.  I just did.  

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